Our history has helped individuals and groups of individuals thrive poised on top of the backs of others. It is the plight of humans up until this very moment of time. If I’m entirely honest with myself and others, this is another one of the shifts I hope to see in human consciousness. I would love to see people move away from control and gain and into acceptance and responsibility.
People have often wrongly assumed I am in agreement with them simply because I advocate for their right to be themselves. In fact, there are such a significant few people I am in actual agreement with that many would be shocked. That doesn’t mean that I cannot support you in your process and your unfolding. That also doesn’t mean that I won’t set boundaries when the time arises for me to make my autonomy clear. If there is anything I will continuously stand up against, it is control, suppression, and repression of any kind. I see so many people upset when they receive this treatment, but turn around and treat anyone they disagree with in the same fashion. The energy just continues to recycle in upon itself. If we want it to stop, I think freedom is a relatively good place to start.
I don’t mean freedom in the sense that we have understood it up until this point. We’ve come close to it, but not experienced it fully. Freedom comes with radical responsibility. With radical responsibility, also comes radical suffering. It is like choosing to step into hot flames and trusting you’ll survive as a stronger person on the other side or die trying. This, in my opinion, is freedom. This will look differently to each person. Each person has their own lessons to face. The question is, are you free enough to face them?
I don’t know that many people recognize this capacity for freedom is as much an internalized one as it is an externalized one. Yes, our systems need a lot of reworking, but that’s just as much a reflection of a need for an internalized reworking. So where does your current power and influence lie? Start there, then expand outward. It will be seen. It will be heard. It will ripple. Just as contagious as a virus, free thinking can be caught and spread. So what is it, exactly, that you are wanting to spread these days?
Many of you are doing a damn good job of it. Is that what you want to bear witness to in your world? Is that what you want to see continually reflected back at you?
For me, I want to see:
So I will keep doing my best to break past my blocks and show up in the world with these traits. I will hope that it will be seen and help enable others to do the same. I will advocate for people to trust their inherent wisdom even if I feel it is incredibly wrong because it is THEIR story, not MINE. This is their learning, not mine.
This is my youngest son. I did not plan for any one of my three boys. Not many people believe me, but they were each conceived while using two forms of birth control. I have no regrets for any single one of them for they were meant to be mine and I was meant to be theirs. This is not the life I ever envisioned, but the greatest thing about that is, it is far superior to anything I ever imagined I was even capable of having.
Today is his birthday. He was born precisely the time that the New Moon will be at its peak this evening. I spent my entire pregnancy in deep prayer and meditation for hours each day. My husband is a Scorpio. My first son is a Scorpio. My second son is an Aries.
I prayed, cried, begged, and pleaded with God to please spare me the intensity that was the humans I cohabitated with. I was exhausted. I was pushed and pulled in every direction with seemingly no reprieve no matter where I went or what I did. As a Virgo, I held onto the grounding space of massive energies. I needed help – another centering sentient being.
Lo and Behold, this beautiful boy was birthed right past the Aries/Taurus cusp and my prayers were answered. He was born at home on Earth Day, of all days, coming forth in water, and a blessing before my eyes. He has his own brand of intensity, but carries the grounding energy that I needed to match mine. Someone that moved a bit slower, a bit more intentionally, with an inherent calmness.
I mention this because my children, my sons, are my everything. They are the defining forces behind my core identity: mother. This was the very thing I never wanted, but the embodiment of my greatest capacity. I want them to be a part of an Earth that is different from mine.
I want them to be held in loving compassion by their peers for how they are both alike and different. I want them to be honored for their natural capacities. I want them to experience an enriching childhood so that they can experience an empowering adulthood, unlike many of us have experienced. It shows. I want this nurturing to come forth in how they show up as adults in the world, far better than we have. I want the same for your children and for you as their parents. I want community members to see them as our future and work hard to model what it means to create space for each person to hold.
Life will likely always be hard as long as it exists. Being human will likely always have moments of pain, crisis, and trauma. However, that does not mean that we cannot continue to collectively raise our consciousness with each generation. That journey always begins with ourselves.